masu_senpai

Failed another math test today. God I hate course compass, if your answer is anything besides the absolutely identical correct answer you get a 0. Also the test is only 19 questions long so everyone you miss is devastating to your grade.

Dating: WTB mildly attractive smart girl with some type of personality plz!
I talked to an 18 year old who only uses text slang when writing to me. Thats ok when you type on a phone, not when you have a full keyboard in front of you.

I have so many things that I want to read that I thought that it would be a good idea to try to boost my reading speed. My speed right now is painfully slow and even below average. I took a book out of the library called 'power reading'. I didn't really like it, a lot of the book was about how to skim though documents. It did tell me what some of my problems are, one being that I read every word to myself.
I checked the web and found an interesting power reading site. I'm taking a free 5 day quick start program and if that increases my speed and/or comprehension I'll probably buy the full program.

I think that I'm through with playing RPG's. While I enjoy the story of RPG's I don't like how easy they are. I'm enjoying the challenge that adventure games provide. I've started playing castlevania series and when I'm through I think I'll start playing Zelda again. So far I've beaten:
Super Castlevania 4
Castlevania: Dracula X
Castlevania: sotn
Castlevania: dawn of sorrow
Castlevania: lament of innocence
Next up:
Castlevania: curse of darkness
Castlevania: lords of shadow (when it comes out)

PS: Looking around on plentyoffish and EVERY girl I have any interest in smokes. WTF?

So I'm officially single again. I broke up with Amy a few nights ago. She said that she was feeling the same way I was, which made it a lot easier. Their really wasn't much more to it than that. She said she'd like to be friends but who knows if that will really happen. We're still friends on facebook so it's possible. It's just my opinion but it seems like she likes the idea of having a boyfriend but she doesn't really want to put anything into it, but what do I know. All around it was a stressful experience but not all around a negative one.
So back to plentyoffish to look around. Maybe I'll just stay single for awhile. Relationships are just so stressful and time consuming.

I saw an ad for the towneplayers; they are performing Alice in wonderland on Dec 4,5,6,11,12,13. I'd really like to go see it, as i've seen so few AiW addaptations, and tickets for only $10. If anyone wants to go let me know.

Yeah, fell asleep at 7 last night and slept till 6:30 this morning. (And was still tired) I had a 3 stage dream, divided by half-waking up a few times.
Stage 1:
I'm in a gymnasium with a womens basketball team. One of them is my new girlfriend. She's a black girl with braided hair. She tries to teach me how to handle the ball but even in my dreamworld I suck at it. She's awesome at it, they were using trampolines to do crazy tricks. Then this old white guy tries to skate down this steep ramp and hurts himself. Their is a big crowd of people inside the gymnasium now so I go and sit on the rafters. I find Ken there and we talk about what happened to the old guy. Then Ken starts talking badly about my new girlfriend which I only argue half-heartedly.
Stage 2:
It's a sunny day out and I'm getting married. My whole family is there. I was either going to marry Sandra Bullock or I was Sandra, I don't recall which. I wasn't to excited about the wedding, I believe that I wanted to call it off but didn't want to hurt my families feelings. I was walking to a car with a tree near by. My mother and aunt were trying to break off a branch that was dangling from the tree because they didn't want it in the way. After a bit of effort they got it down and threw it into the near by woods.
Stage 3:
I'm with Heather in a whore house/ porn set. It was more like a whore hotel/ mall than a house. Basically it was a large place with a lot of people running around, some naked, some not. Heather wants to get the hell out of this place and to stay close to me but we keep getting separated by the crowd. A porn directer tells me that my scene is coming up and to get ready. I act as if I knew all that and everything was fine. Before the scene Heather finds me and we try walking out of the place, I'm disappointed that I didn't get to do the scene. We passed by curtains that clearly were moving because a couple were behind them. Then I woke up.

I don't want to be with Amy anymore.
She lives to far away and she isn't willing to come out to NT to see me.
She is drinking 80% of the time I see her.
She smokes, and I mean REALLY smokes. I've been around a lot of smokers in my lifetime and she can out-smoke any of them, esp while she is drinking. And she's been smoking for less than a year!
She almost never calls or texts me unless I call/text her first.
She isn't affectionate at all. It seems like she is afraid to touch me, which shouldn't be the case because I touch her quite a bit so she shouldn't feel uncomfortable with it.
I don't feel like she is someone I can open up to.
she tells me she likes taking things slowly in a relationship but their is a difference between "slow" and not moving at all (if not going backwards).
I don't feel any special connection with her. She's like a friend. And thats a big problem. Shes taking up the 'significant other' slot in my life while only providing a 'friend' relationship.

However I'm afraid to break up with her. I don't like being alone. Lots of what ifs running through my mind right now. Do I try talking to her about all this? It seems like a long list to try to fix.

So I finished reading Alice in wonderland today. I enjoyed reading it and it was short so that's always good. Its funny how many adaptations their are of that story. I've only seen the Disney version before; as well as an audio tape from "through the looking glass"... said the white rabbit.

I'm also reading Blood of the fold by Terry Goodkind. Now that book is not nearly as innocent. Rape, murder, torture, etc. The sword of truth series is probably going to take me years to finish, being that each book is about 900+ pages long, but they are action packed and I can't wait to see what happened to Richard and Kahlan next.

On top of that I'm reading The making of a Story by Alice LaPlante. It's a guide to creative writing as well being packed with really interesting short stories. The story "Where are you going, where have you been?" by Joyce Carol Oates probably disturbed me more than even the worst parts of the sword of truth series. Their was so much tension in the story that I had my mouth wide open and I was a little bit shaky.
I've been walking through the school library and their is tons of other stuff I want to read about but I'm afraid that I'll end up not finishing anything.

So I went to Target to do some shopping, I was looking for a tea kettle (I'm sick of heating water in a pan and then trying to pour it into a cup) and maybe some jeans. I was scoping out the video games when 3 teenagers approached me. They asked if I was willing to buy them the new call of duty game and offered 5 dollars for the trouble. I don't really believe violent video games are overly harmful to teens so I agreed. Bought the game went outside and handed it to them. +5 bucks for me. Buying games for teenagers; possible business venture?
I went back inside and checked out the tea kettles. The cheapest one was 20 bucks! My mother swears she can get one for 10 so I passed. I went to mens clothes to look for jeans. After two trips to the dressing room I came up with a long-sleeve shirt, a reversible hoodie, and two pairs of jeans, one dark blue, the other REALLY dark blue. I also picked up a pair of gloves, they fit like a pair of gloves and are really snuggly. They cost 20 bucks but I just couldn't help getting them.

Metallica blew my fucking balls off!

I've been going to the gym 3-4 times a week for the past 3 weeks now. I finally feel like its part of my routine, which makes going a lot easier. I go straight from school Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday and I'm trying to go Saturdays as well. Monday and Wednesday I try to go on the Wii fit but i'm often to tired or have to much school work.
I've been getting food before the gym so i'll have more energy, however I don't have anyone to eat with so I do feel a little awkward eating at a buffet by myself. I would just grab some fast food but that seems counter productive to the energy goal. I need to find someone to go to lunch with Tues, Thurs, and Fri.
This is a bit late but House of 1000 corpses and The devils rejects are 2 awesome movies, go see'em.

Metallica concert is only 4 days away! It's gonna be fucking sweeeeeeeet.

I've made my list of classes that I'm taking next semester. Programming logic 2 will be continuing my C++ studies. Writing2, I'm not to sure about this one, it may have some light writing involved. Creative non-fiction 1, I choose this as my arts elective because I suck at drawing and acting. Intro to stats, yay more math! Intro to psychology, social sciences elective, nothing else really interested me. And finally.... BOWLING!!! That should be fun.

I went to Marcellos with Amy for the halloween bash. We went with Amy's friend Erika, who dressed up as a burlesque girl, and her boyfriend Dave, dressing up as a 1920s ganster. Amy was "dressed up" as a gothic girl with wings (which ended up hitting everyone that was at the club in the face once or twice). I was dressed up in a zombie costume that I got at the spirit store, however the mask was to cumbersome to wear in the club so I ditched it. Which made my gidup seem very incomplete. Maybe next year i'll put a little more effort into it.
The club was packed by the time we got there. Lots of awesome costumes including an all male (and very gay looking) cast of the wizard of oz. The dancing was easier than I thought it would be, just have Amy grind against me. They had a couple of drag shows, one dressed up as the queen of the damned. It was quite entertaining. A fight broke out and everyone sqeeshed together to give the combatants room, however security was quickly breaking it up.
I was also impressed by a girl who was dressed up as a Twi'lek from star wars.
All and all not a bad halloween, but I still miss trick r treating.

It is better to become mature through experience than through theory.

So I went to Amy's 22nd birthday party at Finnans in lockport. I had a great time and met a lot of cool people. Amy's sister Shannon, Steve, and Erika. Amy and I hit it off even better than are first date. I decided to give her a chance and we're now officially together.
She's a good girl, but shes 22 and wanted to do what 22 year olds do. I can deal with that.

I found this video on youtube. I thought it was really good at explaining the futility of trying to prove that a higher power exists.

Despite my best efforts I can't seem to make any new friends or get anyone to hang out with me. I just don't understand what people want from me. I try to look nice and smile. I express my desire to have their company. All I get are excuses. I dont want to push myself on anyone so I just let it go.
I don't even know why I want friends. I used to be fine all by myself. I prefered it. Now its like I cant be happy without someone around.
Things haven't worked out with Amy. She's 21 and wants to drink and party and i'm not into that sorta thing. (but maybe I should be?) I really haven't talked to anyone else interesting on plentyoffish.
*crawls into a ball and dies*

I broke up with Amy, but we're still friends. I hope.

I'm still lonely and I miss having sex.

I really like school so far. My computer classes are really interesting.

Thinking about getting an Iphone, but I doubt I will.

So i've been hanging out with Amy some more. I'm not sure whats going on as far as a relationship is concerned. Some things that are holding me back are her smoking and drinking habits. She doesn't drink alot but she likes to drink often. Typical 21year old I guess. I'm also not sure how she feels about me. She hasn't expressed a huge desire to be around me or sent me any love letters(emails/texts). However she's recently told me that I give her butterflies. Also all the kissing/hugging/hand holding is a dead give away that she likes me. However that doesn't always mean a girl wants to be in a relationship with someone. I dont know if shes the right one for me and I dont much care. We have fun together.

I finished the game Mana Khemia today. I have to say it was a pretty sub-par rpg. The main plot was really lack luster and the main character was dull throughout the game. Most of the other characters were interesting.
Flay was the best out of all of them. His whole attitude towards everything and the way he breaks everything down to good v evil is just great. I'm trying to look up quotes from him online.
Anna was really good too. She's a master swordsman who gets paranoid very easily lol.

I also went with my bro and got my school books today. I had no idea how expensive they were. $650! Thank god for financial ade. They were so heavy they tore the handle off the plastic bag they were in. This school thing better pan out or i'm fucked.

I'm about 15 chapters into stone of tears. I had to stop reading it the other day because it made me sick to my stomach. Something about useing a girls beliefs to obtain her virginity makes me feel shitty. Its funny because in the same chapter I had no problem reading about how this guy was going to skin his best friend alive to save his own ass.

I just got home from my first date with Amy, who I met on plentyoffish.com. (ty Heather!!!)
We went to a bar for a couple of drinks. We ended up talking for about 3 hours straight. We have so much in common and she's pretty and shes nice. Already made plans for thursday. Cant wait.